Showing posts with label Helen Macdonald. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Helen Macdonald. Show all posts

Sunday, August 03, 2014

"THE GOSHAWK" by T.H. WHITE

Bob Scriver, human nest for an "eyas" (young hawk).
The bird was not an eagle, but died before we knew what kind of hawk.

When I first began this pursuit of airborne internet communication, watching the high fliers and learning the skies, I told about our pet eagle who came to us crammed into a cardboard box and ruled the backyard with screams for many years, though she never flew.  Often she sat staring into what looked to us an empty sky.  With binoculars, we could barely see some high flier. 
  
Stephen Bodio

Telling the story brought me the attention of a network of falconers, mostly connected to Stephen Bodio’s blog called “Querencia,” which is the place in a bullring where a bull desires to be.  http://stephenbodio.blogspot.com  


It’s also the name of Bodio’s elegiac love story about his remarkable first wife, published by Russell Chatham with one of his mysterious yearning tonalist paintings for a cover.   Bodio’s second wife, Libby, is equally remarkable.   Most of Bodio’s books are about raptors, pigeons, and gazehounds like salukis.  The “blogroll” on his own blog of other bloggers is one of the best.  He has excellent friends.

"Cat Aralbai leads"

One of his books is “Eagle Dreams: Searching for Legends in Wild Mongolia,”  so he was able to match my photo of Bob embracing Eegie with a photo of a Mongolian hunter and his birds.  We always knew the big raptors were descended from dinosaurs.  The east slope of Montana, studded with fossil beds, yields the bones of creatures much like those revealed in Mongolian fossil beds.

Bookstore window display of "H is for Hawk"

Among those blogs Bodio lists is “Fretmarks,” the blog of Helen MacDonald whose new book “H is for Hawk” is barely released. 



MacDonald, who teaches in Cambridge colleges in England, is one of the best writers I know of, managing soaring metaphors with bog detail footings.  (Try her entry for 4-17-2011 which is a description of Brighton.) For a while after her father died she went dark and we worried.  This book is her working-through and resolution, but I haven’t got the book yet.  

"Pale Male"

In preparation I’ve just finished “The Goshawk” by T.H. White, precursor and underlying thread of “The Once and Future King” which I had better get around to reading.  The introduction is by Marie Winn, who wrote “Red-Tails in Love: Pale Male’s Story” about a near-albino red-tailed hawk living along Central Park under the eye of a monitoring camera.  

White, who identifies with Caliban because he is a half-mad recluse in a deteriorating cottage, and who later invented “Wart” to be a precursor of King Arthur, portrays his struggle to bond with “Gos,” an irascible, fire-eyed and stubborn bird.  White’s book becomes part of MacDonald’s book, for where there is great grief there is always great love and difficulty.


Someone once asked me, “Why do you always do hard things?”  I wouldn’t have to explain to all these falconer/writers.  Nothing is so seductive as the barely achievable.  The greater one’s skill, the more difficult the task needs to be and the more fulfilling the necessary growth and effort.  To take on a creature so opinionated and twisty as this goshawk, a bit damaged by “hunger breaks” in tail feathers (places where starvation prevented proper growth for an interval, making a weak spot susceptible to breaking, so that he had a ragged tail) especially since White had only three ancient books and no nearby expert help, meant that he was constantly reviewing plans, creating little scenarios and arrangements that might instill the trust and behavior he wanted.  More like soul-searching than conditioning.

Goshawk

In the early times the key to “manning” falcons was the idea of keeping the bird awake for days, always a little starved, so that the bird’s neurons finally made a map showing the falconer’s fist as its querencia where it could safely eat and sleep.  In his zeal to condition the bird and dread of creating more feather breaks, White fed too generously, which produced bad health and emerald washes.  (They are supposed to be white and Eegie’s sudden swashes did match the plaster we spilled in the shop.)

Here’s the first paragraph of “The Goshawk.”  “When I first saw him he was a round thing like a clothes basket covered with sacking.  But he was tumultuous and frightening, repulsive in the same way as snakes are frightening to people who do not know them, or dangerous as the sudden movement of a toad by the door step when one goes out at night with a lantern into the dew.  The sacking had been sewn with string, and he was bumping against it from underneath: bump, bump, bump, incessantly with more than a hint of lunacy.  The basket pulsed like a big heart in fever.  It gave out weird cries of protest, hysterical, terrified, but furious and authoritative.  It would have eaten anybody alive.”  The goshawk was Caliban’s Caliban.  

Except that Caliban did what Prospero required and it is unclear who White’s Prospero might have been.    But a metaphor can be pushed too far. (Today White would be called “gay,” but he was anything but gleeful and cheerful.)

White’s writing is full of strange antique and specialty words, many of them Anglo-Saxon four-letter designations not at all obscene but part of the hard daily life of a country people in close interaction with both plants and animals, both wild and domestic.  He calls himself in third person “the austringer” who is a flier of hawks, whose shape and habits are like an eagle's.  A goshawk (goose hawk) is three inches shorter than an eagle (both females are larger than males).  When it lands on the ground but misses its prey, it will give chase on foot.  And it does not hesitate to plunge into thickets.  It is thick winged, while a proper “falcon” has long scything wings, swifter and more nimble.

goshawk

falcon

The worst mishap of the bird was “bating,” leaping as to fly without realizing it was pinioned by leather jesses which left it dangling upside down.  Then the handler gently restores the bird to its grip on his hand.  Over and over and over.  When the handler himself loses control and “bates” he must recover his poise by himself.  It is the imposition of self-discipline that leaves the man starving and sleepless.  This is a benefit to the austringer.

We are fond of saying “survival of the fittest” as though denizens of some gymnasium training program would therefore rule the world.  In fact, the word means “fittingest,” those who fit their environment the most closely, the most pliantly, the most exquisitely -- like a free hawk in the air.  For a human to take on the role of a whole environment in order to fit the hawk to himself is both hubristic and full of peril, not least for the heart of the falconer.  Even the reader feels the rage and bruising, but also the ever promised soaring, even though in the end an escape may mean death by dangling from jesses caught in some high tree.  When the language is often that of Shakespeare, strange but vivid, the very difficulty is the reward.  The striving brings fitness.


http://www.theguardian.com/books/2014/aug/01/helen-macdonald-interview-hawk-grief

Wednesday, December 04, 2013

THE WINTER OF OUR DISCONTENT


Brian Kahn is a handsome, broad-shouldered lawyer married to a beautiful artist.  He runs an organization of inquiry and advocacy.  http://www.thelastlink.org/artemis/artemis.html.   He’s from California, but I try not to hold it against him.  (I’m in Montana, but too far north in the state for him to visit.  Anyway not in winter.)  He has a weekly public radio interview show, which is archived online. You can listen to it by streaming Yellowstone Public Radio or by going to the archive. Here's the link:  http://www.yellowstonepublicradio.org/programs/local/home_ground.html   

Last night’s program (Dec. 3) was about Montana kids defined as “crazy” when in fact it is their families who are insane if not in jail.  Brian interviewed two female clinical psych workers who constantly work to “wrap around” these families and get them operating again.  They say,  “We don’t push them away.  We pull them in close to talk to them, even if they kick us in the shins.  We want to know them.”  They try to avoid meds.


They presented a composite story of a young woman with all the “ten indicators” of psychosis and explained them.  (The list I found online has 11.  Same stuff.)  They do what is sometimes called “acting out.”  Often the kids will replicate what troubles them: assaults, forced sex, stealing, lying, fantasy, running away, destruction, drinking, drugs.

  • Feeling very sad or withdrawn for two or more weeks
  • Seriously trying to harm or kill yourself, or making plans to do so
  • Sudden overwhelming fear for no reason, sometimes with a racing heart or fast breathing
  • Involved in multiple fights, using a weapon, or wanting badly to hurt others
  • Severe, out- of-control behavior that can hurt yourself or others
  • Not eating, throwing up or using laxatives to make yourself lose weight
  • Intensive worries or fears that get in the way of daily activities
  • Extreme difficulty in concentrating or staying still that puts you in physical danger or causes school failure
  • Repeated use of drugs or alcohol
  • Severe mood swings that cause problems in relationships
  • Drastic changes in your behavior or personality
Sometimes I respond to Brian and he always acknowledges it.  This time I said:  “Our culture itself is abusive:  we require things that are not possible, we punish their failure with violence and confinement, we are all obsessed with sex defined as domination, and we wonder why marriages fail.  Money is the measure of all things.

“Who 'wraps around' a culture?  Religion?  Government?  Media?

“If Pope Francis can take it on, why can't we?   The planet may be turning.”


In response, Brian sent me a copy of  Apostolic Exhortation Evangelii Gaudium on the Proclamation of the Gospel in Today's World (24 November 2013)  which has flipped the Catholic world on its ear with surprise and on its face with gratitude!   Pope Francis has captured the flag. 

I replied to Brian:

"Yes, I've been following Francis and the talk about him.  Because of having been a minister and because of being an alumni of the U of Chicago Divinity School, I'm on mailing lists that follow discussion of any and all new developments and the Pope has their full attention.

There are a few ways he needs to go even deeper, but he's certainly a powerful focus on the right issues."


The things I note below are crippling the Catholic (basically Roman) convictions.  They are far more important than who gets to be a priest (Just DO it -- you don’t have to be ordained -- and there are far more sexual orientations than male/female.)


1.  There are too many people.  We will HAVE to come to some kind of birth control.

2.  Institutions always put first their own self-perpetuation.  The only reason the Pope can talk like this is that the cardinals realize that without change the Catholics will die out -- already are except in the Southern Hemisphere. Denominations try to promote their specialness at the expense of others and by doing so, eventually devalue themselves --  indeed, the whole concept.

3.  Underneath all the dogma and talk and service to the least of these has to be an empowering connection to the nonverbal FELT sacredness of the world in all its sensory richness.  To put all the emphasis on something in "another world" where rewards are deferred until after death is a vulnerability.  To make a humongous humanoid the object of felt sacredness doesn't work for all of us.

This is the mammal that survived the dinosaurs.  That's a radio transmitter on it's neck.

Brian Kahn has clearly been thinking about evolution, but he is still seeing "survival of the fittest" in terms of power and domination.  He has forgotten the lesson of the mammal, which in its teeny furry long-nosed prey form ran between the toes of the dinosaurs and proved therefore more FIT for a new world.
At the same time that I’m talking to Brian via email, I’m talking to Helen Macdonald in Cambridge, England.   http://www.hps.cam.ac.uk/people/macdonald.html  She is a professor there, a woman who flies hawks, and one of the finest writers I’ve ever read, believe me.  http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=Helen+Macdonald&rh=i%3Aaps%2Ck%3AHelen+Macdonald

I was going back and forth with her on Twitter where she had posted the dismaying news that peregrine falcon populations in the north are being killed by unseasonable rain, which soaks the chicks and makes them hypothermic.  This is climate change diminishing habitat.  So I asked for examples of climate change expanding habitat, because climate change is habitat change writ large.
  

Then, since when I went out to feed the feral cats there was a V of traveling geese flying low over town, I proposed a little continuum:  the birds go from one habitat to another by going north/south;  the little mammals (pikas, marmots) adapt by going to higher or lower altitudes; the poor trees cannot migrate as individuals, but perhaps as one edge of forest contracts, another expands; and humans simply change the world to suit us at the expense of all the other habitats.  (Water is the most unmanageable factor in habitats as we notice with increasing desertification and rising seas.)  

Helen notes that an expanding hawk habitat is that of the city where the hawks live on the skyscrapers and eat park pigeons.  Then she says how she loves the cry of the wild geese,  so I posted this for her:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9VrgRIgOK0 .  She didn’t know it.   Too young.  Not a big hit in her circles.  But it’s key to mine since the day it was on the radio in 1950.  (I was eleven years old.) A great cure for depression, a clear clamor for moving on.  A vital use of the Internet to time travel.

Brian is operating out of a different paradigm than I am.  He believes in organizations, rule structures, exceptional and inspired individuals, rational argument.  He replies:   “SEEMS TO ME PART OF THIS IS GETTING LOST IN THE WEEDS OF PERSONAL VIEWS WHILE IN FRONT OF YOU IS A NEW, CLEAR, GLOBAL VOICE FOR ESSENTIAL -- AND I MEAN ESSENTIAL -- ECONOMIC SANITY.”  

It’s my challenge of what is “fitness” that is too weedy and personal for him.  His personal idea of success is opposite to mine, which is to have the freedom to be poor and write all day -- NO meetings!!  More of a bird-watcher approach.  I propose that what is endangered in one place is the “fittest” in another.  It may be that “psychotic” and delinquent kids who have been annealed in a family fire will be the ones who are tough and devious enough to create a culture that protects the hawk in the arctic as well as the child in the streets.   


The habitat of the human being is impalpable and ineffable and unpredictable.  It is here.  It is a song sung long ago but preserved in human hearts and technology.

Brian says:

I'm amazed you found that 10+-year old site.  It was created for a film and is obsolete, including the contact info.

In my view,  you have not accurately summarized what I believe in.  I don't remember if you've read my book, REAL COMMON SENSE -- it says what I believe.