Saturday, October 26, 2013
WHAT'S UNDER YOUR PYRAMID?
Saturday, August 17, 2013
AUGUST IS THE IRONIC MONTH
Monday, November 07, 2011
THE PRAIRIE HOLDS ITS BREATH
The prairie is holding its breath before beginning to blow again. The leaves have been torn down, so only the water-drawing structure of the trees remains, a vertical river emptied for the cold. Long dead grass is sheltering small green plants at its feet. Without leaves my poplars look as though someone tied knots in the lesser branches. They are growths from some kind of disease. When I ask, people shrug. My cottonwood and one of the blue spruces are showing signs of stress -- not enough water in the late summer, too much in the early summer. The newspaper today advises a good soak before winter sets in. In some places there is not enough ground moisture to give the winter wheat a proper start. They need to have roots so their vitality will winter over and spring up green.
Summer building, fall planting, are just trailing off now. The Halloween snow has come and gone -- night skiffs will persist with maybe some single-digit blankets until Thanksgiving when the first big snowstorm hits. The bowl of water I keep outside over summer is frozen solid in the mornings. If I leave it and the sun hits it, there will be a little water on top by afternoon, but I’ll dump it out now. Skies are bluer with summer dust settled and water vapor wrung out by cold. The yards are cleared of furniture except for the barbecues. In a meat-eating town some people don’t know how to cook on an indoor stove. The only spots of color are children’s plastic toys abandoned on the lawns.
I’m looking at house skirting, driving around town in mid-afternoon through the empty streets. Many houses have them, mostly trailer skirting, some of it meant to look like stone though it doesn’t. If I put skirting on my old house, it would be warmer. The real old-timers used to bank dirt or snow against the bottoms of their houses, but they were less worried about bugs and small rodents. It’s pure speculation on my part. I can’t even afford a paint job. The present paint is peeling: thinly sprayed-on cheap latex paint. The actual siding is asbestos, which always breaks along the bottom, so that the effect is like bad teeth.
One intersection near the new watertower is completely dug up. No idea why but maybe something to do with attaching the new well. I didn’t get out of the pickup to look. I might be curious enough to go back tomorrow when workers will be there, so I can ask questions. We are all getting very curious about our infrastructure. We’ve just paid some consultants $20,000 to find out why we often fail our sewer effluent treatment tests with the state, which has advised us we need to upgrade. Partly we are maxed out, but there is also a theory that the providing company for the treatment machinery sold us a system that doesn’t work at forty below. Another theory is that the spring was so wet that there was too much water for the “bugs” (bacteria) to do their job.
The people who built the processing megaloads for the Athabascan tar sands have bought land near Bynum where they plan to build future loads, adding 140 new residents to a place that has dwindled to near nonexistence. They say because the place is already on the route approved to haul them. Why aren’t they building in Valier? We’re on the route and past some very risky terrain on 89 between here and Bynum. Sharp curves, steep drop-offs, thirty miles closer to foothill ice storms. A decision by someone back east who has never been here. Everyone was anxious to know who sold the land: Hutterites.
Most people have done their hunting now. There’s been wind for keeping geese down low and snow for tracking elk. The weather was great for pheasant but the bird population is down. The snow geese are on Freezeout in their huge African-style rippling banks and clamouring clouds of moving wings. The managers plant barley to bait them. They’ll be around until the next storm, then roar off to the south. The ornamental waterfowl in Gibson Park in Great Falls have been herded away to their winter confines. I don’t know what the city did to get rid of the slacker geese along Tenth Avenue South. Probably the same thing as Valier did to eliminate the rock pigeons around the grain bin farms in town. I ask about those bins, but haven’t found the right person for answers yet. Taking out the rock pigeons left a niche for the hyperactive noisy doves. I advise the cats to get to work on them. They don’t. Don’t ask, don’t tell. Don’t catch them.
This part of fall -- late, bare -- is always in tension between the stress and abandon of summer and the expected tests of winter. This particular summer for me was braced, paranoid, ambiguous. It never did get really hot. My cherry tomato plant mostly just sat there. My computer died and was restored with the help of friends and relatives, which was an immensely heartening experience that I had not expected and still feel a little guilty about. My intention in this part of my life was to be absolutely self-reliant and on my own, but that turns out to be a silly idea. My other intention, to write with as much risk and passion as I dare, has been pretty much fulfilled but because it was private, only a few people know about it. At my utmost, I was not quite enough. But what I can see in the future might be even more demanding.
A little while ago in my futzing around, I knocked out this computer. Dead. Nada. It took much more pondering -- accompanied by paranoia -- than it should have to figure out the problem. The power cord had come unplugged and I think of power cords as BIG. This one was small. Maybe that’s a good clue. Maybe it’s not so much the events as the way we take them. Emotion can be good, but it can also interfere.
Anyway, there will be more wind. And it will remove many leaves from my yard. Then I can rake and bag what’s left in the corners. Even so do the seasons, our lives, and our feelings weave in and out of each other, encoding as they go.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
PRAIRIE COLORS (or colours)
In the town the colors were Crayola, primary and color wheel stuff, meant to suggest enamel, plastic, flags, toys. . . commerce. I grew up in Oregon where the only crayons you needed were green. Did you know there are twenty kinds of green in the Crayola full set? Not counting the specialty crayons: Changeables (like Tangee lipstick, they go on one color and become another), Magic Scent (they had to stop using food smells like “berry” because the kids ate the crayons), Gem Tones and Silver Swirls. I’ve neither seen nor tasted any “specialty crayons.”
I went to Dick Blick’s website for art supplies to kick up some action in my brain and was pleased. It appears that in this context there are not only new colors but new “media” beyond pastels, oil paints, watercolor, or even craypas, which are a personal favorite -- though I never know quite how to use them -- because of their brilliant colors, highly “saturated” in the lingo. One Easter I wrote and drew on hard-boiled eggs with craypas, then dipped them in black ink. Looked great.
There are things called “color sticks” described as instantly drying oil paint. I’ve never seen one. It makes me think of animal markers (http://www.livestockmarkers.com), which are (yes) for writing numbers or symbols on cows, horses, pigs, sheep. Here’s something I never knew about before: “SHEEP MARKING CRAYON - Designed for marking sheep in varying climates. 4”x 2” (10cm x 5cm) The Ram Crayon is to be used in conjunction with a Ram marking harness. The harness is to be placed upon the Ram. The crayon (which should be on the animal's chest) is fastened to the harness with a split pin. When the ram mounts the ewe the crayon will leave a mark that sticks well. The color of the mark on the back of the ewe allows the breeder to track the correct Ram. Consists of top grade waxes, and pigments which mark in intermittent weather conditions which sticks well to animals.” It makes me think of a naughty story about a woman who was intimately entered without her permission just after a doctor had painted her entrance with purple gentian to treat a fungal infection. The culprit, in his private part, had clearly “voted” for her, though it was not his finger that was inky. It strikes me that putting a crayon harness on a ram might be a little like belling a cat.
More properly, there was a Montana artist (I think a woman in Bozeman) who drew big gorgeous prairie scenes of runaway grass fires and flaming sunsets, using animal markers for their broad strokes and vivid colors. I’m told that over the years the colors, like the auto paints used by Jackson Pollock, lost their punch. I hope that’s not true.
The descriptions and instructions for this animal crayon website are in French. French animals? Cat Urbikit at http://www.stephenbodio.blogspot.com, who ranches sheep in Wyoming, uses Nepalese ranch hands. Her guard dogs are big Eurasian breeds, but the dogs who work with the herders are more likely to be Australian heelers or black-and-white border collies. When they mark the sheep, what language do they use? Is there an international language of sheep marking symbols?
But I’m getting off the point again, which is colors. I discovered that the computer codes for colors are called “hex” colors because they are coded in 16 bits or pixels or whatever. They started to call the system “sexameter” instead of “hexameter” but the designers got all embarrassed. Clearly not French. I suppose the people who are really into it don’t say “blue” or “green” anymore, but rather refer to the sixteen number code. Talk about a foreign language. Usually the choices are presented as a table that automatically translates into “hex.”
I guess we can’t talk about color without talking about language. On the prairie, when speaking of color, it is also necessary to talk about the season. The green hazes of spring, the yellow and blue flowers that follow, the sheets of lupine lavender, then the tawny burn-off of late summer and the red-orange of Indian paintbrush in the mountains. When the day is winter and clear, it shimmers with the Monet iridescence of gold wheat stubble among snow reflecting sky blue.
When the land is wet in winter, which doesn’t happen for very many days, the colors are saturated, the russets and siennas and burnt ochres of old masters’ oil paintings of interiors. I’m always interested that some mud is greenish and other mud is reddish, depending on whether the sea life pulverized into it aeons ago accumulated copper or iron.
I tried to Google around to find out about what makes DayGlo colors so bright, but no luck. One gets lost in phosphorescence, flourescence, until the nuances are too hard to figure out. No one seems to really know.
Some people do not like the taupe, dun, beige, ecru, sorts of colors and their reaction to the color scheme of the late fall Montana prairie is that there is nothing to look at. But to my eye, that’s when things get interesting. There is only one color I really hate to see: the gray of a chemical fallow field, which has been sprayed to kill everything, creating vegetable ash. In theory, the killer chemical will be gone by the time a new crop is planted. In actuality? I don’t think so.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
SOLITARY BUT IN COMMUNITY
My most favorite co-op is the Seminary Co-op Bookstore in Hyde Park where you might have run into Obama once. Not now. I still maintain my membership which I began in 1978 so I’m now officially a thirty year member. I get 10% off purchases, which just about covers the shipping. What I need is an equivalent for used and remaindered books, which are mostly what I buy, but I can find them at Powell's which used to be in Hyde Park. These bookstores work because they are run by wonky geeky idealists. I love ‘em: I mean both bookstores and idealists.
The deepest I got into communal stuff was the Portland Scribe where I was the theatre critic for a year, attending the weekly meetings where a volunteer editor presided over an unruly circle of people sitting on the floor in an old church. Of course, I was the Animal Control Officer for SE Portland, which was where many of the hippies lived in old houses in the San Francisco manner, though the houses weren’t nearly so elegant. All day long I knocked on doors, earnestly trying to get rebellious counter-culturists to do the right thing about their dogs. They’d say, “Dogs are supposed to be FREE, man!”
But the most nearly I came to really joining the counterculture was when a highly intellectual young man in steel-rimmed spectacles worked for us at Scriver Studio a few days in the Sixties and seriously suggested that I just go with him to Stanford. The attraction was mutual and instant. I turned him down. Might’ve been the wrong move, but I wasn’t finished with Browning by a long shot. Still am not.
What works against the hippie/commune/counterculture magnet is from my mother’s side of the family, esp. her fiery Irish-Prot father who demanded respect with that imprudent, raging attitude of someone who knows he isn’t getting any respect. He longed for sons, then adopted the defensive attitude (he had a LOT of attitudes) that his four girls could do anything sons could do. Their reaction was to pose in bib-overalls, boots and old hats -- their long curls cascading over their shoulders. In the end, after watching her mother die slowly of cancer, my mother fixed on respectability in a more low-key dependable way as an elementary school teacher and then librarian. (Barrus’ mother also was a librarian. Neither of our mothers was the kind who had a degree in library science. They lugged books around.) My mother wanted security and though she was brave in some ways, she never got up the courage to move out of her original bridal house.
Except that at one point she thought the two of us should buy a duplex and each live on her own side. I didn’t even want to stay in Portland, much less where my mother could monitor me. She was very angry when I left for seminary in Chicago and stayed disapproving even after I appeared to be doing fine as a minister. “Why can’t you just marry a nice Presbyterian minister?” she asked.
So, caught between prudence and risk, being co-opted and being co-operative, I’ve ended up solitary, which is not the same as lonely because I’m so busy and so connected to virtual community through the Internet. Not Face Book or You Tube or even Twitter, but just on-going relationship with various communities, the most unlikely of them entirely guys, many of them young, and one of them only ten years younger than me, a survivor of full-frontal, deep-dish, all-the-way communalism. I’m there, but I’m not there, which suits both sides of the arrangement. None of us has much to lose. Of course I mean Cinematheque.
I take Barrus to be a combination of his mother and father, the same as myself. What choice do we have? His father’s ability to use tools, to work hard, to be a good foreman -- his mother’s gifts as master gardener and librarian -- all survives in their son. Even the rage -- though verbal and aimed mostly at exasperating people in publishing or cyberpredators. Taking three “puppies” with suicidal tendencies on a sudden pilgrimage to Bolivia to stabilize Barrus’ daughter and her family in the midst of street demonstrations was his father Maynard’s kind of thing to do, defying danger while protecting from it. “You kids feel like dying? I’ll show you what dying is really like! If you’re going to die, do it FOR something!” The only way to tell whether it was a good thing to do is to keep those pups alive until they are thirty, then ask them. Works for me. In the meantime Barrus’ daughter and her family stayed safe, didn’t run.
All this is so romantic, so unlike the lives of most Americans, that there is a contingent who insist Barrus making it all up. Maybe. I read the articles of William Langewische in Vanity Fair, which are just as out on the edge, but no one says he’s making it up. Of course, he’s a journalist and making it up would be breaking the rules. But Barrus is beholden to no one. Even if they were BOTH making it up, they explore ways to live that aren’t just a matter of trying to make enough money to keep your house.
Incidentally, maybe the solution to the big empty foreclosed McMansions is to make them into hippie communes for artists. No government processing or interference -- just let it happen. Might happen anyway. An ecological niche always gets filled one way or another.





